Very disappointed, why there are people who always think they are right? Everything also must listen to them and if you express your point of view all you will get is
"Nonononono, it's not like that"
"Nonononono, you don't understand"
"Nononooooo, this is not how it works"
So upset, if I can choose, I will never wanna keep this type of people in my life, I wouldn't even wanna keep in touch.
No contact = No argument
No argument = nobody will be in dilemma, happier life
It's not that I have to take the advises given, I'm just tooooo pissed I have to rant.
Hello! For Christ sake why didn't you look at yourself before shooting other people?? You have your pride but what about the others? You think you are so good that other people's thinking are all sh*t? Holy cow
I forgot when was the last time I'm so upset with someone, of course I'll get over it, but I'll never forget all the miserable moments you bring into my life, you, someone who's not important but also someone I can never get rid of.
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Saturday, November 1, 2014
If only we can choose people to keep/delete
Saturday, October 25, 2008
I'm disturbed
I woke up and pee 21 minutes ago, I was very sleepy and thought will fall asleep immediately after I pee. Guess what, 21 minutes later I'm sitting in front of my laptop, which is right now at this moment.
I couldn't sleep
I couldn't sleep
I so wanna slap myself
I so wanna fuck myself
What the fuck is happening to me?
I hate myself
I used to be a very determined person, I used to be
But today I'm scared, I'm panicked
I woke up realised I have changed a lot,
I'm no longer the person I knew for years,
I'm no longer doing things that I made myself promised,
I'm no longer a determined person
This feelings sucks
I want to cry, but it won't help
There is something I wanted to do since 2007, but I always have a lot of excuses and reasons, say
I told a lot of people I want to/must do it, but did I do any single things to make it happen?
No
I didn't
I didn't do anything to make it happen
Since when I became someone like this?
Today is 25th of October, 2008. I want to make this date different
From now on, I want to make "it" happen, and I'm not telling the whole world what I want this time.
Sometimes...you won't do the things that the whole world knows, at least I'm this kind of person
-<3
Sunday, May 4, 2008
Weirdos in the ladies' room
Yesterday, I went to gym with Kevin, we have trial passes for a week. In fact, we decided to sign up their 2-year program.
I remembered I went to one of the well-known fitness center in KL few months ago, I didn't like the center even though the fitness equipments are complete, because there was a day, in the afternoon, something has happened in the Ladies room.
Right after I showered and put my clothes on, I walked out to the locker area, then, I saw 5 guys (wearing the fitness center's uniform) in the Ladies' room. They were sitting there and chit chatting..
My mind was totally blank, thinking
"Isn't this a Ladies' room? Or I'm so wrong??
Why there are guys in the room?!"
I felt very very uncomfortable, but I thought maybe guys are allowed in the locker area, but isn't this ridiculous? Because it is ladies' room, right?
"It's okay...maybe I'm too narrow-minded" I tried to console myself, at the same time I was so grateful and thankful that I wasn't naked.
Then, I saw a lady hiding in the corner of the room, apparently she was very upset and frustrated, staring at the guys. Guess what, she just showered and only have a towel on. I felt her pain. It was really offensive!
I was really silly, I really thought guys are allowed in the ladies' room (locker area), so I didn't make any complain. That night, I called Kevin and asked (he was with this particular fitness center for some time). He was surprised. Now, I know ladies' room means ladies' room, no exemption.
I didn't complain to the management, but anyway, I only joined for a month, and I didn't think I will go back there anymore or sign their program. I SHOULD HAVE MADE a complaint letter!
I swore that I won't just wrap myself with a towel and step out of the shower room, NEVER NEVER. Few months after that incident, I forgot what I swore
I REGRET now
Back to the story, yesterday after work-out, I brought my clothes together to the shower room, I discovered there was no hanger and no space to put my underwear and clothes. I thought it's OK,
"Common it's ladies' room, that kind of incident will not be happened in this center (hopefully)." Basically I was trying to persuade myself that it's OK if I just bring a towel.
The shower rooms are just next to the locker area, I only wrapped myself with a towel.
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"Are my eyes OK?"
One guy was standing in front of me, next to the showering area.
There was a girl standing next to him, fixing the locker.
What the F*CK?!
I stared at him angrily, he was aware that he SHOULDN'T be in the room, immediately, he turned away and ran out.
ENOUGH, I swore I'm going to make a very BIG complain to the management, how can they allow males to get in the room? B*STARD. Are the staff all BLIND and didn't see people with COCKS went in the room?!
I took my bra panties and everything to the shower room, only FOOLS will take off their towels and go naked in the locker area!
After I took everything and turned back to the shower room, guess what, I saw the guy just now, and this time, a male staff was with him. Fine, I bet the locker's lock was spoilt.
I didn't utter a word,
Come on, even if I wanna make a complain, I must make sure I'm wearing something on...ahem, I mean clothes, not towels.
In the shower room, I started to ask myself
"Are you really okay? You were half-naked...
Do you want to make a big deal out of it?
If the girl's locker is spoilt, they should call in a female staff to cut the hasp right?
And the girl's boyfriend should wait outside, not together with them..."
I decided to talk to Kevin
I went out of the ladies' room, Kevin wasn't there yet. I saw the male staff who was in the room just now. He looked at me, I didn't smile, I was not wearing emotions on my face.
"I'm very very sorry, I'm very sorry..." He started to beg for my forgiveness
"Are guys allowed in the ladies' room?" I asked him, Kevin was too slow, I couldn't wait any longer
"No...no guys are allowed in the ladies' room, even me (referred to staff) also not allowed to get in the room...I'm very sorry..." Fears in his eyes, he was really worried.
"I see..."
"Please don't complain me...please don't make a complain...
Actually I asked the lady before I got in, she said nobody is in the ladies' room, I've asked her twice. I'm so sorry I didn't know you were there"
Now I felt that was serious, he would lose his job if I make a complain.
I'm soft-hearted, that was bad, I could just ignored him, but I thought to give him a second chance. Anyway my mood of joining fitness center has swung way, so farrrr away.
In car, I told Kevin about everything including my disappointment, Kevin suggested to make a complain. I told him I promised the staff that I won't complain about him. However, I will still complain to the management, and hope they will look into this problem seriously, I'm not going to mention the name of the staff, that was what I promised.
Sigh...I really like their fitness program, I will give myself a second try.