If only we can choose people to keep/delete

Very disappointed, why there are people who always think they are right? Everything also must listen to them and if you express your point of view all you will get is
"Nonononono, it's not like that"
"Nonononono, you don't understand"
"Nononooooo, this is not how it works"

So upset, if I can choose, I will never wanna keep this type of people in my life, I wouldn't even wanna keep in touch.

No contact = No argument
No argument = nobody will be in dilemma, happier life

It's not that I have to take the advises given, I'm just tooooo pissed I have to rant.
Hello! For Christ sake why didn't you look at yourself before shooting other people?? You have your pride but what about the others? You think you are so good that other people's thinking are all sh*t? Holy cow

I forgot when was the last time I'm so upset with someone, of course I'll get over it, but I'll never forget all the miserable moments you bring into my life, you, someone who's not important but also someone I can never get rid of.










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I'm disturbed

It is 521am

I woke up and pee 21 minutes ago, I was very sleepy and thought will fall asleep immediately after I pee. Guess what, 21 minutes later I'm sitting in front of my laptop, which is right now at this moment.

I couldn't sleep

I couldn't sleep

I so wanna slap myself

I so wanna fuck myself

What the fuck is happening to me?

I hate myself

I used to be a very determined person, I used to be
But today I'm scared, I'm panicked

I woke up realised I have changed a lot,
I'm no longer the person I knew for years,
I'm no longer doing things that I made myself promised,
I'm no longer a determined person

This feelings sucks

I want to cry, but it won't help

There is something I wanted to do since 2007, but I always have a lot of excuses and reasons, say

"next time" "tomorrow" "not now"

I told a lot of people I want to/must do it, but did I do any single things to make it happen?
No
I didn't
I didn't do anything to make it happen



Since when I became someone like this?
Today is 25th of October, 2008. I want to make this date different


From now on, I want to make "it" happen, and I'm not telling the whole world what I want this time.

Sometimes...you won't do the things that the whole world knows, at least I'm this kind of person

YOU, I know I will get you!

-<3